I was 18 and excited that I was graduating
From high school and had choose a university that
Was two hours away.
I was trying to escape from myself and
Did not realize that wherever I went there I was.
I had three roommates and lived in a coed dorm
It was October and I decided to stay on campus
For the first time on the weekend
Because I wanted to know what happened on the weekend.
There was a party and everyone was drinking,
It was the first time that I had ever drank,
I was drinking Hawaiian punch and Kentucky Vodka
Just like everyone else
The room started spinning,
I became a social butterfly and was talking to everyone
My roommates where jumping from room to room,
Then I was told that my roommates went down to the
I took the elevator down
And knocked on the door
This guy told me to come in,
Next thing I know is that he is undressing me,
He is touching me and I am on my back,
I did not want to have sex with him or his friend
They were raping me
When they got done I got up, got dressed and could not
Find my bra,
They kept my bra as a trophy,
I was sobbing and went upstairs,
A police report was made,
Went to the hospital and the nurse did the rape kit
I was sobbing and was so scared.
The next day, had interview with another police
She looked right at me and told me that I deserved
To me raped by two men
That is was my fault.
I went back to my room and climb
Up on my bunk
I cried myself to sleep and slept
For over 16 hours
Once again I was told by society
That rape is fine and that I meant nothing
That men can rape and that I am
Nothing more than a walking mattress that
Deserved to be raped.