This is from The Boulders In My Life That Shaped My Journey
I cannot sleep because I am so scared that Troll is going to rape me again. He was on this side of the base and I am so scared. I do not feel safe. I should have fought him. I should have made him kill me. I should have screamed. I cannot believe that I was raped. I cannot believe that this happened again.
Tonight, I went down to the smoke pit and smoked an entire pack because I am afraid that he is going to come and rape me again. I want to tell someone exactly what he did to me, but I have only been in since August. I am so terrified of the chain of command and do not know how to say to them what I need to say.
The chain of command is treating me like I did something wrong and i was told that I am going to talk to a Chief about my drinking because being raped was my fault. Then they sent me to a medical facility on base to evaluate me. I had to meet with a psychologist and did a mental evaluation. I was just raped. I am not the one that did something wrong. He raped me!!!