Born With A Vagina,
I was given the label of girl,
I was taught to dress a certain,
I was taught to follow what my mom did,
I was told that I was supposed to wear dresses,
That I was supposed to do house work,
That I was supposed to play with certain toys
Such as Barbie dolls, grow my hair long, and only
Once I became I tomboy I no longer fit into what
Society wanted me to be because I had a Vagina,
Since I wanted to climb trees, play basketball, football, baseball,
Ride bikes, get dirty there was something wrong with
Me and I had to be shown where I belonged in society,
That is when Ryan showed me what porn was,
And raped me,
Then I was threatened that I would be killed if I told anyone,
My friend told his mom and his mom called my mom,
I was then grounded to the yard and told to just
Forget about what happened to me
I was told that since I had been born with a Vagina that
I was only here to be raped.
As I grew up, I still did not fit into what society wanted
Me to be because I wanted nothing to do with being a woman
Then two black men raped me when I was intoxicated and coud
Then I was once again told by Female Police Officer that I deserved
What they did to me because I was drinking underage and that
Entitled two black me to rape me.
Then the University of Cincinnati sent me to be evaluated for a mental
Health disorder instead of doing any thing to the two black
Men that raped me,
I became suicidal and wanted to die and I tried to kill myself
Once again I was told that since I have a Vagina that I am some how
Weaker and do not matter as much as men.
Then when I was 23, I was raped again and did not bother
To make a police report,
I knew that no one would do a damn thing
Then when I was 25 I was raped by a third class petty officer
Twice in the same day,
I did not say anything until the next day when a friend
Asked me what was wrong
She went and told the chain of command
They took me to have rape exam done at Wilford ER,
OSI came and talked to me,
The chain of command blamed me for being raped,
Master Chief said, “We believe you but there is not a damn thing
We can do about it. Here’s your orders to your next command. Promise
Me that you will go to counseling.
Then the retaliation started,
I was not allowed to go to counseling at rape crisis center,
I was told that I was lying,
I was told that I was fat,
I was told that I was nothing more than a walking mattress
That deserved to be raped
My career was ruined and I was given code of JFT erroneous enlistment
Then in 2013 when he straight up admitted to raping me they still did
I was told that, “We have to investigate you. We have to know who
All you have slept with. About any other reports that you
Have made. We do not care what he said in his email to you.
So once again I was told that since I was born with a VAGINA
That I am nothing
That rape is fine and we do not give a damn about you
That rape is not against the law and we only protect rapists.
That women are only here to service men and rape is perfectly fine.
And that it is fine for men to rape over and over and over and over again
Guess what!! That is not why I am here.
Women are not trained to service men.