I am going to put this as politely as I can. Today on Twitter some idiot said that I am a proud survivor. One, I am not a proud survivor. Two, I am not proud that I was raped six times. Three, I was not born to be raped. Four, I did go to the University of Cincinnati to be raped. Five, I did not enlist in the Navy to be raped. Six, I have never wanted to be raped. Seven, I never wanted any of this. Eight, no one asks to be raped and I sure in hell did not ask to be raped. Nine, I never wanted to have to live with Post Traumatic Stress. Ten, I never wanted to deal flashbacks, nightmares, being afraid, losing jobs because of PTS, not being able to sleep, wanting nothing to do with being a woman, and always looking over my shoulder because I am afraid that they will find me and rape me again. Eleven, I have not wanted to deal with chronic pain because my body holds the trauma in places because of what happened to me.
I am pissed off. I deleted my account. I am thinking about deleting my facebook account. For someone to say that I am a proud survivor is just wrong. I write this blog to tell my story. I write my poetry to tell my truth. I write this blog so other survivors know that they are not alone. I am freaking enraged and what this idiot said today really hurts. It is just like the shit that the chain of command did. Do not worry. I will not be creating any more videos or sharing any more poetry. I am so sick of this shit.