Feeling unheard

Feeling unheard,

Feeling unseen,

Feeling disrespected,

Was at counseling appointment,

Therapist looked at me and told me to

Stop writing my poetry and not to talk about

Being raped.

Writing my poetry is the way

I get out what I am feeling,

I am not good at talking about what happened,

I immediately left my body and shutdown,

I came home, got my blanket, turned on calming music

And started crying.

When therapist said that to me, I immediately heard

What Ryan said to me,

What my mom said to me,

What the two guys at UC said to me,

What the police officer said to me,

What Josh said to me,

What Damon said to me,

What chain of command said to me,

What NCIS said to me,

I went to bed early,

Used aromatherapy,

Cried myself to sleep.

I am still feeling distant, detached from myself,

I do not want to talk to any one.

Afraid to say anything anymore.

Will not be reaching out anymore.

Author: shellback0608

Julie "Jewels" is an Author, Poet, Nia Blue Belt, Green Belt, White Belt dance instructor, Reiki Jin Kei Do Energy Healer, and advocate. When she is not writing, you can find her learning new Nia routines, listening to healing music, taking photographs, playing with her dog and spending time with her friends and family.

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