Your Fat

Looked at told that I am fat

And that is why my knee is hurting,

Flashbacks come back to me,

Feel that I am back on the ship,

I hear words that where spoken by Chief

And medical department replay in my mind,

I am very triggered,

Feelings come to the surface and I start crying,

Being “fat” has nothing to with why

My knee is hurting,

Never mind the fact that you hurt

Your knee running,

Never mind that you hurt your

Knee more by doing your job on the ship,

Never mind that you only weigh 154,

Never mind that you fought with your chain

Of command for two years,

Never mind that you abused your knee

By doing physical training when you

Could barely walk on your knee,

Never mind that you were told by

Chain of command that you were

Going to run on that knee and we

Do not care if you hurt it more.

Never mind being told over and over

Again that there is nothing wrong with your knee,

Never mind that you had extensive surgery

On your knee to fix what was wrong,

Never mind that you have four screws in

Your knee,

Never mind that you were told that

There would be times that your knee hurt,

Never mind that you are coming back into

Your body,

Never mind that your knee is where you

Hold the trauma memories,

Never mind that the feelings that you feel

Are held in your knee,

So your knee only hurts because you are fat,

Obviously that has nothing to do with why

Your knee hurts.

 

Author: shellback0608

Julie "Jewels" is an Author, Poet, Nia Blue Belt, Green Belt, White Belt dance instructor, Reiki Jin Kei Do Energy Healer, and advocate. When she is not writing, you can find her learning new Nia routines, listening to healing music, taking photographs, playing with her dog and spending time with her friends and family.

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