Earlier today, I was told that a person that I do not know, have never talked to, she does not know a damn thing about is trying to bring attention to the fact I wrote my book. I do not take threats to me lightly. Therefore, I am leaving the Military Sexual Assault community. I will not be making any reference to being a veteran nor do I ever want to make reference to this fact. I have dealt with hatred all of my life and I am done dealing with this crap.
For those of you that think you know any thing about me, well you do not. You do not know that I continue to struggle, that I throw up when I eat, that I wake up with nightmares and stay at home because I do not want to be out around any one. You do not know that I continue to go to therapy twice a week. I drive straight to therapists office and then straight home. I do not like being around people. I want nothing to do with men. I have lost four jobs because of being raped and PTSD. All I have done today is cry. This has triggered me so much and it triggered everything from the past.
I wrote my book to help other people to heal. That is what my intention is and currently still is. I did not write this book to get RICH!!! Writing is therapeutic for me. Creating things is therapeutic for me and helps me to fight PTSD.
For someone to threaten me and want to pull a stunt like this is wrong. I have been hurt beyond belief. I had my life destroyed. I had my career ripped away from me. He still has his damn life and career.
I only hope that my book reaches those that care about healing, that want to experience love and support. Those that tear each other down and destroy lives are no interest to me. Those that do not know what I do on a daily basis just to function do not know any thing. So why ruin someone else’s life? What do you get out of that?