Category: Healing

Triggered, Enraged, I do not take threatens against me lately.


Earlier today, I was told that a person who is a destructive person is trying to bring negative attention to my book by trying to hurt me personally/ professionally. I do not take threats to me lightly. Therefore, I am leaving the community. I am not making any reference to being a veteran nor do I ever want to make reference to this fact. I have dealt with hatred all of my life and I am done dealing with this crap.

I wrote my book to help other people to heal. That is what my intention is and currently still is. I did not write this book to get RICH!!! Writing is therapeutic for me. Creating things is therapeutic for me and helps me to fight PTSD.

For someone to threaten me and want to pull a stunt like this is wrong. I have been hurt beyond belief. I had my life destroyed. I had my career ripped away from me. He still has his damn life and career.

I only hope that my book reaches those that care about healing, that want to experience love and support. Those that tear each other down and destroy lives are no interest to me. Those that do not know what I do on a daily basis just to function do not know any thing. So why ruin someone else’s life? What do you get out of that?

Book Launch Announced


Newly Released!!

The Journey Back to Myself: A Book of Healing Poetry

Written by Author Julie “Jewels”

Contact Julie at: jewelssmoot@gmail.com

Emerging from the ashes as a Phoenix, Navy Veteran, Julie “Jewels”, shares her healing poetry that she wrote over the course of one year as she continues to heal from multiple sexual assaults and Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Julie honestly shares her truth about what happened to her and what she has done to continue to heal. She is empowered and has found her voice.

The Journey Back to Myself is available in paperback and for Kindle.

It can be found at:

https://www.createspace.com/6457071

Amazon link is:

https://www.amazon.com/Journey-Back-Myself-Julie-Smoot-ebook/dp/B01KGGHIXO/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1472314057&sr=8-1&keywords=The+Journey+Back+to+Myself#nav-subnav

About the Author

Julie “Jewels” is an Author, Poet, Navy Veteran, Nia Blue Belt, Green Belt, White Belt dance instructor, Reiki Jin Kei Do Energy Healer, and advocate. When she is not writing, you can find her learning new Nia routines, listening to healing music, taking photographs, playing with her dog and spending time with her friends and family.

She is on Facebook at:  https://www.facebook.com/Julie-Jewels-1572339046405270/

Discovering Who I Am, From The Journey Back to Myself: A Book of Healing Poetry.


I wrote this poem when I was taking Blue Belt. For the longest time, I have not been comfortable with who I am, was being what other people wanted me to be and I did not who I was. During Blue Belt, I took a slow dive into the depths of who I am and discovered who I really am. I learned many things about myself that has made me stronger and helped me to find my voice.

That is when I wrote this poem. This poem is an invitation to look inside of yourself and discover who you are. It’s an invitational to go on a healing journey to heal yourself.  Please watch this video and pick up a copy of The Journey Back to Myself: A Book of Healing Poetry today at amazon.com.

 

 

Let Go: A poem from My Journey Back to Myself: A Book of Healing Poetry


Poem called Let Go. In May, I kept on hearing this little voice inside of myself saying let yourself cry, feel the feelings, let your therapist be there for you, let my support system support me and be the real me. I listened to that voice, took the steps and allowed my to feel what I needed to feel. Slowly day by day, I am letting go of the pain.

Excerpt from The Journey Back to Myself


One of my poems,  PTSD 

PTSD

You are the enemy I fight

Every single day,

You are constantly there,

I do my best to keep you at bay,

I do not know when you are going to

Rear your ugly head,

 

I do not know what will happen

During the day to cause me to

Flashbacks and nightmares,

I do not know when

I will be triggered

And get into fight or flight,

 

All I know is that

there are times

When I am afraid,

There are times when

I cannot stand noise,

 

There are certain smells,

There are times when

I cannot stand being

Around people.

 

There are certain places that I avoid,

There are times when I am constantly

Looking over my shoulder,

There are times when I am afraid that

Something will happen to me,

 

There are times when I get

triggered that the

Images replay over

and over again,

Cannot relax,

Afraid,

 

There are times when

I cannot sleep and

I toss and turn

I finally get to sleep

I wake up crying,

 

My palms are sweaty,

My body is shaking,

My shoulders are tight,

My knee is hurting,

My ankle is hurting,

 

The nightmares that I had felt

like they are raping me again,

I leave me body,

I am not breathing any more,

 

I hear what they said to me,

Hear what the police officer said to me,

Hear what chain of command said to me,

 

Keep replaying over and over again

What he said in email and

how they did nothing to him

 

Try to tell myself that I am safe,

Try to do deep breathing

But when I breathe deeply

Start crying more and more.